worst paper in my entire college life

shet, got my lowest grade for a paper ever. enough said. *sob*

so sad can’t even update a sensible post.

i feel empty.

goodbye, worlds!

yes, i failed the WUDC tryouts. even though the results aren’t officially out yet, i am already 100 & sure that I failed the UPDS tryouts for te 2008 Assumption Worlds. and so as early as now, i am starting to condition my mind to stop thinking about any thailand- related fantasies and worse debate in thailand stuff since i know that i won’t be there to debate anymore.

how did the tryouts go? it was fxcking stressful. from all the logistics (room reservations, coordination with the tryoutees, text brigs) to the tryouts proper. the motions were so fxcking hard, prolly the most difficult ones that i’ve ever encountered in my whoole debate life. then again maybe at par with the middle east quartet in the UPLB IVs last year lol. all i know is that i really hate the motions, especially that econ debate.

i’m happy that i think, luis was not as terrifying as the others say. benta pa yata ako sa kanya. *chipper*

the only worthwhile thing that i’ve done in the tryouts was to move on very easily.

and alvin, don’t worry. i’m happy with what i did in that last fxcking round.

i just have to be sure that i pass NDC tryouts. XD

debate poverty

poverty sucks, and you suck more if you can’t make anything about it.

and yes, i really suck. i swear i am almost completely devoured by poverty that i am dreading the fact of not being able to join the international debate tournaments that i have always wanted to get myself involved in. just because i’m financially challenged, with not-so-supportive parents who don’t even see the point of shouldering the expenses using our personal funds, i have to find my own means of raising money for myself.

i remember miya said, “many people think that debsoc is rich because we join international tourneys. im,sorry, NO! we are poor because we join them! (David, 2007)”

this year is so full of international tourneys, with the WUDC (Thailand) on top of the list. There’s also the Oxford IVs, Bangladesh Worlds Mini, Singapore Debate Open, and some tourney in the US. Not to mention the tourneys next year, such as Australs and AUDC.

i swear i would join even just one. if i don’t make it to the UPDS WUDC tryouts this saturday (my seeding grades suck!), i’m going to Bangladesh. i’m poor, but they’re poorer than me. joke!

the only consolation that i have right now is that i’m sure that ze parents will give me enough money for UPIVs, PIDC, and NDC.

*will post a more sensible post later, super sleepy*

academic benevolence

another day spent unproductively. i don’t know what i’ve done to deserve all this rest of the highly- appreciated 6-day weekend. the timing is just so perfect that it came just right after my hell week, when i  averaged just 2.5 hours of sleep a day because of the overflowing-and-almost-inhumane volume of papers that i had. this vacation is truly a way to recover the sleep and relaxation that was deprived of me for the whole semester.

i uber appreciate this long weekend. i had a dose of my obsessive- compulsive mood swings that i was able to efficiently clean my room and my academic stuff. even though i am allergic to dust, i dared to clean everything since i cannot just entrust all my stuff to our house angels. they just ruin every order that i have of my own property XD.

and yes, because of that, i now came up with a short list of the exemplar (read: high grades + my own satisfaction) academic papers that i have done in my whole college life. i intentionally excluded from the list some papers which i personally do not like. who would dare bother read a paper about the scientific names of wet market seafood anyway. i really <3 wordpress and its easy-to-use features (finally, im agreeing with edgar) and hence, i now have a mini-wordpress-library!

everyone can now access the titles of the papers (plus descriptions to the others) that i have authored. i initially thought of having a free-for-all access to the papers themselves, but i realized how plagiarism starts and hence, i didn’t do it. so if you are interested in reading my papers, this is how we are going to do it:

1) leave a comment in my  phonological library page stating the title of the paper that you would like to read.

2) state your reason/s why you want to read that to begin with.

3) add me in Y!M (rayvitorio@yahoo.com) so we could talk in private.

4) if i find legitimacy behind your reason/s, i can email it to you for free! for some more complicated papers, i might charge a small meager. we can negotiate.

5) you have to show me a copy of your paper, so as to be sure that documentations are properly executed and the reasons are true/fulfilled.

just that simple!

why am i doing this? simple. now that i am working on my thesis, i realized the value of having resources that are very easy to access. i’ve already cried a lot just because the papers and the books that i need are not present in any library. and as researchers know, the validity of any conclusion rests on the literature so much. and inasmuch as i see the problem with limited resources, i want to provide even the minimal help that i can to other researchers.

i never thought that i would be as academically- benevolent as i am right now. but then, i am just rv vitorio, an aspiring phonologist, a simple student. who am i to be selfish of my petty works?

research should be shared, inasmuch as knowledge is not exclusive to anybody.

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on a side note though, i just missed my high school friends. pictures of our reunion at The Phonologist @ Multiply.

fresh start

finally, i’ve been devoured by the irksome v. powerful bandwagon of my blogroll. having so many blogger friends abandon their blogspot (and er, of course, blog- city) sites and all moving here to WP, i reassessed that there might be some legitimacy to such moving. and yes, being such an ethnographically- oriented person, i decided to see what WP can offer me that all my previous blog hosts failed to provide. hence the sudden gradual move here in WP.

as of now, i can say that WP is greatly confusing to me. i must say that i have been so much used with the spoon-feeding in blog-city, blogspot, and livejournal that i already forgot all the high school HTML and Java-script lessons that i had way before. right now, i’m being parasitic to the idea of customised designs, toolbars instead of tags, and many pathetic styles just for me to survive here in WP. the only consolation that i’m getting is the big possibility of ease for me to shift this WP blog into my own domain, chances being good to me that i just decide to maintain my own. or better yet, if i think that i can do it all over again.

now this blog, i say, is a complete shift from my previous blogs. i will totally lessen the academic stuff here, plus all the rants that may be found in my previous blogs. i still use my LJ for acads and debate related rants, so people may just read me there should they want to. and now that i’m at the onset of starting a brand new blogging experience here in WP, i might as well try to showcase a new side of me. hello creativity and featurized rants.

i’ve got so many things to here in WP, and in the pinoyblogosphere. i swear i just love the people in there, so nice and wonderful.

i’ve got more to say but i have to ask for permissions first.

** can anyone offer me free WP tutorials? lol i really need them.